God's Presence

"The LORD replied, "My presence will go with you, and I will give you rest."

Exodus 33:14

 

 

January 21, 2013

 

An angel held my baby today, of this I am most certain. As he laid there on a hospital-looking bed, electrodes and tape covering his precious little head, it's as though I could sense His presence as I closed my eyes. Wrapped up and swaddled lying on that hospital bed, so helpless, he looked at me with those beautiful hazel eyes searching my own eyes for security, comfort and assurance. And I knew that my job as his mother had never been more important than in this very moment. I wanted to break down, in all honesty, but he needed me to be strong for him. And the only way I knew how to be strong for him was to pray.

 

Oh, my precious little son,

May you feel the great power and Spirit of the Holy One.

 

Guard and protect him LORD with all of my heart I do pray.

May Your peace and assurance be with him right now in every possible way.

 

Hold him in Your strong, protective Fatherly arms

Casting and vanquishing all evil that desires to cause him harm.

 

In this moment helpless and fearful I do feel.

Send Your Spirit, may it be strong within, to give me faith like steel.

 

In You there is no fear.

So I beg of You, Jesus, come to us. Be ever so near.

 

Fill us with Your promises of hope, trust and love

Allowing the Holy Spirit to fill his heart from that which comes only from Heaven above.

 

 

And just as my little guy searched my eyes for that security and comfort, I looked to the LORD for that same reassurance and protection. I close my eyes and envision myself lying at the feet of Jesus. It is an emotional scene. I cry - deep, gut-retching cries - as my head lays on His lap. He strokes the top of my head, holding me close. "Jesus, I am so tired," are the pleas I manage to let out in between cries. "I'm trying to go forward, fearless, but something tries to hold on to me, preventing me from focusing on You." With a knowing nod, He doesn't have to speak any words to me, and my soul finds rest. His embrace is solace. I don't want to leave this moment. My heart is restored and finally whole. It is the only time in which there is no more pain. There is no more fear. I don't want to open my eyes and face the world, so I beg Him to make it all end - to take away the pain and the hurt. I don't want to feel it anymore. And so I pray. I wonder if that prayer I prayed for my son this day isn't the same one my Jesus prays for me...

 

Oh, my precious daughter, daughter of the King,

May you feel the great power and Spirit of the Holy One.

 

Guard and protect her, LORD, with all of My heart I do pray.

May Your peace and assurance be with her right now in every possible way.

 

Hold her in Your strong, protective Fatherly arms

Casting and vanquishing all evil that desires to cause her harm.

 

In this moment, helpless and fearful she does feel.

Send her the Spirit in order to build her faith strong like that of steel.

 

Remind her that in You there is no fear.

I beg of You, LORD, come and to her be ever so near.

 

Fill her with Your promises of hope, trust and love.

Open her heart to receive the Holy Spirit that comes only from Heaven above.  

 

 

There was a miracle that happened today. My little boy took on this challenge head on (literally - he was having an EEG done). He did everything he needed to do in order to make things go as smooth as possible. He even, after about two grueling hours of being restrained (just an FYI...the kid never stops moving), gave a hug to the technician. I have never been more proud of my little guy, and more thankful that the LORD's presence surrounded us in protection, reassurance and love.