I sit here in the quiet of this night.
Reflecting on my life wondering if I have done things right.
Along this journey many temptations and trials have come my way.
But, faithful and steady to Your Word I have tried to stay.
The road I have traveled has been full of betrayal, abandonment and lies.
Oh, how people look at me, label and criticize.
On my knees I have fallen in failure, pain and broken heart ache.
Before You in prayer I have begged You this life to take.
I have believed the lies and hurtful things they have said,
Instead of focusing on why You died upon the cross and the gruesome death You bled.
I have made choices that have led me astray -
Ones that have taken me from You, away.
I have questioned Your will and plans for me.
I have closed my eyes, denying the Truth to see.
I have listened to fear and insecurity tell me I am not right.
I have chosen to walk away from the light.
Dearest Jesus, I hang my head in shame.
Seeking forgiveness and grace, I call upon Your holy and righteous name.
Forgive me, Lord, for what I have done -
For hurting Your one and only Son.
Oh, My child, with My hand I pick up your weary head.
Put your trust in Me instead.
There is nothing you can do in order to receive My grace.
Look upon My smiling face.
Here I sit with you in the quiet of this night.
I am here to tell you that because of and in Me you are right.
I know your journey has been filled with temptation and trial.
In order to become like Me, you must endure them for a while.
I knew, before the world was even created, you would walk a path bedridden with betrayal, abandonment and lies.
My heart has been pierced by your heart broken cries.
I have heard each prayer you have prayed.
Yes, others have left you and walked away, but I have always stayed.
You see, before you even made them, I knew the choices you would make.
I saw each and every heart break.
But, My child, in spite of them all I still love you the same.
My love is not because of holy and righteous acts of behavior, but because of My Son's holy and righteous name.
He stood in the face of fear for you, My dear.
He chose to walk in the light, even in the darkest point of the night.
He did these things for you in order that you could live free and have a right relationship with Me.
You see, this is what undeserving grace is and what it means to be His.
There is no more shame when you call upon His holy and righteous name.
There is forgiveness and My grace that covers over all that you have done.
It is a free gift that has come at the sacrificial expense of My one and only Son.